Wednesday, May 28, 2003
8:00 PM
lol.i told her on tuesday. yays. nothing happened. phew!
had training yesterday and my lip almost needed stitching.
like ouch.=X i didn't go to school todae cux of the deep cut, its still bleeding, but not as much as ytd. whoa, it was so bloody. eeks!~ pain*
sobs, can't go tanning on saturday anymore. =-( nvm. sigh.
its so boring now, lol, but i guess its as boring in school.
going to the uncle frank's clinic soon. hope its better.
hope i can meet dear ltr. and teach him maths. =)
can't wait to see you. i miss you.
bev
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Monday, May 26, 2003
5:08 AM
all i need now is God and you.
i need strength and your comfort.
everything's so messed up in my head.
just cried the whole dae.
back to my old emotional self. =/
everything's changing.
can't get things right.
im so afraid of their response.
im so afraid it would turn out bad.
she's already giving me those funny stares in school.
i think she hates me.
what am i suppose to do.
i won't change my destiny for sure.
i just hope that they won't add stress to my life.
-sighs- even that woman can guess!
wth, but its not problems. lol.
its just me taking things too seriously as usual.
but i know God and you will always be there for me.
i really hope and know so.
i din really keep my promise to you, and im sorry.
hope im forgiven =) *smilez*
doesn't matter if all the people whom i thought would be there in my life aren't there now, im happy, cux i got you.
and you and GOD are all i need. nothing else matters.
bev
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Sunday, May 25, 2003
8:40 AM
weeeee, today was damn fun.
went dear's house with mei first.
bear bear and baby are soooo cute. =)
they both were acting funny with each other. -uhh oh- lolx.
but bear dun want to come to me. -_- nvm. haha.
went sam's hse and went swimming in . . . -shys-
poor desiree only swam for 5 min. =( haiz
played arnd in the water for quite sometime =D
samual lent/gave me his cute big mouth monkey shirt.
cux my shirt was all wet ! haha. thank you.
ate curry and fried rice *yum* =p
played game of life with dem, and i had so many children with dear ! wahahax. 7 lehz ! lol.
am back home now and mama's still not home.
hahaha. so late! =D goodiee.
tml is going to be a borrrringgg dae.
checking papers. yucks.
haix, i just cant wait to start playing again.
nitez everybody. =>
bev
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Friday, May 23, 2003
4:20 AM
watched x men II with pris, mei, hamham, yiling, and laopo at j8. finally! =D
wolferine is so cute and kewl. ahahax. poor jean grey, died in the end. so saddening. sigh.
but the show was -ohH sooo nice- lolx.
met dear later and took 55 home.
was smiling the whole way like a mad retard.! haha.
taught dear maths and now he's gone home liao. =(
ok, you must be wondering.
bev!?? teach maths??!!! what the. wahaha.
anyway, i really feel like going to parkway.
mebbe mummy can bring me. hee. =P
but i also feel like finshing my book and im so tired again. sheesh. nvm, i shall get my beauty sleep first.
number 1 priority! ---> SLEEP
okiee dokey, byebye blog.
bEv
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Thursday, May 22, 2003
7:01 AM
IHATEMYMOODSWINGS.
god, why did you give me moodswings?
pls take them away. pretty please.
i wanna SMILE.
tell the world im alright, even if iim not.
i want to be happy.
leave the rest of the world behind.
to be with you.
lol. laughing is contagious. lol.
picked up my mum's call and she still denied.
hee hee. maybe she was too speechless for words.
wahaha. am on cloud nine.
lalalala! =D
Okkk. Im smiling.
you smile too. hahaha.
bEv
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4:06 AM
my addiction to the chocolate waffle has faded.
i don't really crave for it anymore.
alright. whatever.
can slim down and get rid of all the phats.
went town with jiamin and mei.
she bought so many things.
golly. she's something like kris, but definetely much more impulsive.
the money just flows out like water. cool. =P
anyway biao mei, thanks for accompanying me to the school.
its hot, and real hot! kinda huge too. isn't it?! hehe.
going to j8 with 10 tmr.
hm, but we end at 8.45am.
maybe i should go home first?. hmm. lemme think.
there is chem test tml n somehow im totally calm.
have yet to start panicking. -_- sighs.
i really just want to sleep.
i wanna have nice, sweet dreams.
go off to dream land.
get away from reality.
this world sucks.
okok. no it doesn't. God made it.
sigh. yea, but still, its a lil sucky cus its changed into such a materialistic, prejudice and cruel world.
im not saying im perfect.
i have plenty of flaws too.
everyone can see that. yeah.
right now, my spirits are not exactly high.
i feel so dead.
i feel so apathatic.
i feel so changed.
i want to be alive.
someone help me. dear?
hai, gonna catch some zzzs
i think i hurt someone and the guilt is afflicting me. BADLY.
i don't know what to do.
feel like crying, but the tears just won't come out.
thats good though.
okay, that enough of moaning, bev.
burbuai blog.
Bev
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Wednesday, May 21, 2003
8:03 AM
bought a pair of "spikey" earrings.
its like so funky.
maybe stupid. lol.
gotta get my puzzle/s.
im crazy for them.
should i get the hamster or rabbits?
or another dog.
actually i still need to get the frame for the old one. -_______-
ahah! i think i like the baby mickey.
alright. where's the money??!
so much stuff to buy yet so little $.
things i want :
1.lotsa nice clothes.2.puzzle.3.baby poster.4.neos *cheese*.5.bag.6.watch.7.change hp with dear.8.shoes.9.sport shoes.10.markers.
things i want to do :
swim.play badminton.read agatha christie.watch tv.watch x men II.watch lotsa movies.shop.teach dear.sleep.
i really need to keep myself entertained. dun want to die of boredom. =X
haha. going to town wif mei again tmr.
there's no school ! lol.
eating curry now. yum.
jiamin kpo - ing now. -_-
haha. i still yr biao ge ok.
hm. gonna call my MYSTERIOUS DEAR soon.
wahaha, spite jiamin. =P
ok. nitex..
byeee.
bev
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7:28 AM
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Tuesday, May 20, 2003
8:55 AM
the last of the major exams are over. -hurrays-
this is the worse exam iv'e ever taken.
think im gonna fail 3 subjects.
- bangs my head against e wall -
lolx. like whatever, its over.
just have to study a wee bit harder for the finals.
uh-huh. you can do it bev. -really?-
hope so.
playing yahoo games with kris now.
BORING.
really got to find a way to entertain myself since the exams are over and im so free.
going out with mei tml to shop.
hope kris can come.
=)
iv'e become a teacher.
dunno if i can teach well.
honestly, do you understand?
well, hope you do.
must remember to do your homework dear.
lol. dun doubt me anymore too.
cux you know everything is true.
up to you to trust and believe me. =)
haha. missed those daes where my cousins and i used to play school.
-grin- its so ironic about how i enjoyed "playing" school last time and lol, school really sux now.
i hate it. lol. peng, esp those teachers. like the duck.
at least she's straightened out a lil. hahaha.
little less curly and "seductive"
whatever. i dun give a shit abt her.
yes. as i was saying...aughhhhhhhhh!
my mood just swang.
cux of that ass afro / nun.
blah blah blah. -_______-
oh man, she just pisses me off so much.
i just want to slap her !
and i would if i have the chance ='(
hai. life's so complicated.
she's just making me feel life sucks,
and she's trying to tell me that it doesn't.
what the h*ll is she trying to imply.
auugh ! freak lar.
my mum wants me to study for listening.
shit. i din -rolls eyes-
does she even know what she is talking about.
bahs ! heck. nvm.
its 12 now.
took so long to blog cux there were so many
INTERRUPTIONS.
gdnite to all. *yawns*
- calm down stupid girl -
bubbye. -_-''
bev
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Friday, May 16, 2003
11:21 PM
Which flock do you follow?
cute! =D
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Which X2 Character Are You?
hee, still haven't watch. >.<
Do you cluck or do you roar?
this quiz was made by alanna
haha.
How random are you?
this quiz was made by alanna
You're a Sapphire. You seem to be unreachable, but
deep inside, you are really a nice and warm
person. You are elegant and get along well with
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pretty.
im tired.
im sleepy.
im bored.
of studying.
school sucks.
big time.
yea.
no doubt.
bev
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9:54 PM
i really really can't wait for the exams to be over.
there's so many things i wanna buy.
there's so many places i want to go to.
there's so many things i want to do.
there's so many people whom i want to spend time with.
i just can't waiitt !!! - screams -
[dear]
i really love you.
i hope that you won't doubt that.
i'll try to change for the better.
and you don't be so sensitive k.
don't worry so much. =D pls?
ok, we've come to a compromise
haha, yup. =)
gee, i didn't know i had such bad mood swings.
sigh, yea, but im not suppose to know anyway.
lolz. i'll try not to go against the whole world when im mad,
haha..gonna have to control. yepx.
u too. change and dun think so much.
ok, thats all. miz ya !
= muackz =
bEv
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Wednesday, May 14, 2003
2:07 AM
had two ( alot of writing ) exams today.
geography was disguisting.
I HATE TOURISM.
literature was okay.
there's no school tml. -claps-
but still have to study for A maths and Ss
im getting so worried. '_'
i get pissed off by you at times.
you get so sensitive !
but thats me.
if you dont like it.
i cant do anything.
i try to change cux i love you.
but u seem to want me to change my wholeself.
its not just what you want.
i want myself to be me too.
i like who i am.
i feel alright and perfectly normal.
maybe you're gonna say you don't understand me,
or im talking in circles.
but thats just me.
you don't like it?
then dun play this game and lead me on.
i wish i could be what you want.
but i can't and im sorry.
when im tired.
you always say i seem like soooo anti - you.
I AM / WAS TIRED.
i don't have so much energy.
i cant give you anything more.
and i really wish you wun expect so much from me.
i don't know why i don't express myself when you want me to.
-can't help it-
i don't say much.
i don't want to say much.
but those words are in my heart.
iv'e told you time and time again.
i can't give you things that your "past" gave you.
im different.
i just am.
im not like them.
i express only when i feel the need to express.
i express only when i can
i express only when i want to.
i can't give you all my time and strength,
for now.
i got other things to worry about.
love doesn't lie.
i ain't lying to you,
i tell you how i really feel.
i hope you will understand.
i really don't want to hurt you.
if i did, im sorry.
i stole your rights to cry.
nv gonna give them back.
if i make you sad,
please don't cry.
just remember that i'll be with you always.
and this i promise you.
i'll never leave.
i'll be loving you forever. =)
C21 - You Are The One
It’s early in the morning
soon another day will dawn
I can’t wait to feel your arms
around me again
I believe that we could
lay down the world
together we could live
the dream that never ends
Open up the door
just a little more
baby let me in
You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I’ll give you love
if you’ll give me your heart
Everytime I near you
time is standing still
there’s nothing you can’t fix
with your heavenly smile
I would never leave you
my love is for life
taking things for granded
was never my style
Just give a little love
say you’ll never stop
I’ll do anything
You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I’ll give you love
If you’ll give me your heart
And I’ll do anything
if you give me your heart
ahh ahh yeah
I’ll do anything
You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
give a little love
say you’ll never stop
and I’ll do anything
I’ll give you love
if you’ll give me your heart
ohhhhh ohhhhh
Where ever you go
you are the one
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I’ll give you love
if you’ll give me your heart
*its a beautiful song. and i love you dear.
bEv
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Saturday, May 10, 2003
9:29 PM
testing...
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Friday, May 09, 2003
9:27 PM
chinese compo exam sucked, wrote totally out of point. oh well. nvm.
exams have started. -bit nails-
hope i can finish studying.
paddy's birthday is tmr. and i guess she's celebrating.
no peace. little girls screaming all over the place.
maybe ill go to the parkway library to study.
if im not needed to help out. yea.
oh yar. mother's day is tmr too.
i shall bring my mum to cut her afro hair. lolx.
hm. what present shall i get?
[.im.so.in.love.with.you. you.alien.mutated.booboobrainy.baboon.]
and...
falling deeper.
bev
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7:30 AM
i took this goofy quiz @ naivete
this quiz was made by sara
noT reAlly.
iM alwAyS uP in tHe sKy. lOlx.
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Monday, May 05, 2003
7:05 AM
blogger konked out yesterday so couldnt blog. sheesh. =(
celebrated one - month with dear at suntec, marina square, city link, tampiness mall, my house... so many places. legs gonna fall out. hee hee. nvm. its ok, i was happy, so was he, so i guessed it was ok. yup. anyway, pls dun regret buying the headphones. they are real nice. and according to u, they are good too. so regret for what?!??! crazy.~
wonderful day. i enjoyed it. hope u did too. =)
felt so f*cked up today.
had A maths test and i din noe it was only 10 min. what the hell.
felt so damn sad. tears just came out. i think i cry only for a and e maths this year. hai, cry for what?!!! - slaps myself -
was sorta different this time. i thot of you when i was down. not her. she din even cross my mind.
failed ting xie again. 1/20. really not bad. cant wait to get zero. -_- im wasting my time studing for it.
so pissed with everything. feel so negative. din understand a maths tuition. cried. >.< peng. wats wrong with me!
sighx. thot alot abt you today, and also of that perfect girl.
she' such an angel. wish i could be like her.
she's so close, no wonder she gets blessed.
somehow, im scared of her. but i just have to trust in you. im trying.
exams are making me paranoid.
cant wait for them to be over.
then i can go out and play everyday.
mebbe ill pon school for a day or two too. hm.
ok, im getting goosebumps. im so scared for the exams.
kk, chemistry time now. then later call dear. ciao.
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Saturday, May 03, 2003
12:44 AM
it rained the whole morning. wasted my whole morning daydreaming and listening to music. sigh. watched the parent trap AGAIN while eating lunch. felt so touched by the show suddenly. havent felt this way abt a show in a veh long time. - sulks - dun want to go back to my old emotional self. heex. i wun. i noe. =P just quarelled with her again. >=( feeling irriatated but mean. i hate it when she pulls my hand off. just like my sister. dun treat me like i have no feelings. she goes barging in and out. wth lorz. i cant even have my own privacy. whatever. mebbe thats life with her. but im glad to have her. i cant survive w/o her. yupz. im so contradicting myself. -__- exams coming real soon. just started revising today. alot more to complete. -whines- i really hope ill be able to do well. haiz. burbuaiz.
Bev
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