Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too
Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you; I love you too"
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly
Friday, October 31, 2003
6:39 AM And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you
When I fall in love it will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love
In a restless world like this is
Love has ended before it's begun
And too many moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun
When I give my heart it will be completely
Or I'll never give my heart
And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you
(Ooh this love feels so right...)
When I give my heart it will be completely
Or I'll never give my heart
And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love
When I fall in love
Is when I fall in love with you
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Friday, October 24, 2003
7:14 PM I can’t believe
that were sitting here
it’s like a dream come true
after all these years
I’ve been looking for love
in every possible place
searching for an answer
in every strangers face
I didn’t know what to do
or where to go
but you were here all the time
you stole my heart
you opened up my eyes
baby you changed my life
Say it again one more time
those three little words that’ll change my life
say it again say I love you
say it today and tomorrow to
say it forever
say that you love me again
And I have been foolish
so many times
I wasn’t to carefull
with this heart of mine
I had a dream
of an honest heart
of a full commitment
right from the start
Someone up there
must have heard my prayers
and somehow send you my way
I give you my heart
I give you my soul
I give you my night and day
Say it again one more time
those three little words that’ll change my life
say it again say I love you
say it today and tomorrow to
say it forever
say that you love me again
Thursday, October 23, 2003
1:47 AM What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how a n**** works and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love
It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
yeah, where is it man? *searches* i see none. nobody.
forget it.
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
5:07 AM i can see.
i can see how much i mean to you
i can see how much you want me
i can see how much you love me.
and i see nothing.
you've given up on me just like that.
you've just given up w/o saying a word.
you've just given up, i see no effort.
if thats what im worth to you.
im nothing to you. NOTHING
im just a memory.
it doesn't matter to you whether im with you or not.
i can bloody well see that.
its not even half a day and you tell me bye.
you just gave up so fast.
you gave up on me.
you don't need me anymore.
you don't love me anymore.
get that clear in yr head.
i can tell now.
to think i was sucha fool back then
where i believed you wld wait until As like you said.
well, you contradict yrself too much.
even if i am blind, i wld be able to see.
you didn't even wait a dae
you didn't even try.
you love me not
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
7:08 PM i can't get myself into anything until i know for sure.
i know i won't put myself into the same situation until after Os
i can't risk it. im not gonna be left helpless again.
i don't know abt anything going arnd me.
you won't tell me anything
maybe you don't mind being w/o me.
i won't know until you tell me something. hai.
i really wonder...
How deep is your love?
How do you know you love me? do you?
Aren't there prettier girls you want to know?
Do we actually suit each other? i'll nv know.
sigh.
How wld i know if you've totally cleared yr mind.
What abt Van? ohhh, im just mixed up.
why am i fussing over this now when i don't even want it now.
i can't handle this now. sighh. oh mannn. i dunno.
7:48 AM Oh man. Im just having these weird moodswings of mine. i hate it. i hate the way im feeling now. just stab me. dammnit, i miss you okay. what the hell is wrong with me. you're probably better off w/o me and so am i. yes, often i wonder, what you are doing in indo. maybe you're already with someone else. there must be many chio bus there. well, im sure they can't resist yr charm. sighhhh. whatever. oh god, must it always turn out this way. must things end off like this. i can't stand it. i hate it.
friggggg! im sooo dreading thursday. i think when i see my results, i will just drop dead on the spot. im feeling so terribly low down now. what the hell is going on in my mind. i don't even know. all i know is that im feel so darn empty and pissed and its all YOUR FAULT. i dunno why, so dun ask cux i can't explain. but it is and im just stating a fact. yeah, just get angry at me. just shout at me. yesyes, i need more of those. its funny, but i feel like just getting beaten up. oh well, if i do get it, i shan't retaliate. then maybe ill feel more relaxed and stress-free. ohhh, what the heck am i talking about. i think all i want is a massage. ahhh. sighhs. bloody shit.
im damn irritated. oh just give me some money. you dun even provide for us. you give us NOTHING. you're not fit to be regarded as a father. i hate you. you go arnd like nobody's business, spend all her money like its yours. it ain't yrs. you stole it you stupid bastard. you're not king. you don't scare me like you scare her. i hate you. go to hell. you have no right to tell me what to do or FORCE, after what you have done. i hate you.
oh shit, i feel so useless. and broke. frig, now i feel a sore throat.
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Monday, October 20, 2003
2:28 AM hello. lol. another day of fun. im so tired now. they all came to my house. mum cooked so much for us. lol. so kind. slacked arnd for a while then we walked to ECP. which is just outside my house. haha. rented bikes and cycled. [like duh] lolx. there was alot of geography around us. seawalls, breakwaters, swash n backwash, weathering, erosion, longshored drift..etc. hahaha. its was real sunny then. we sat at the beach and talked crap. esther even drew a world map in the sand. hmm. lol. there was a nice land breeze too. =) haha..
where shall i go tml? haha. dunno if i shld go for ice-skating with phil they all or shld i go cookie baking at cheryl's. um, i dunno. tml then decide. haaa. there's two marking daes so we don't have school. lol. whoopiee. =D but we have to come back on thursday to check ALL our papers. thats shit. ohh, its raining now. it was so hot just now. i think i need a book. i need to go to the library. lol. wells, ciao.
Sunday, October 19, 2003
3:55 AM Hmm. was so bored at home. so we went shopping the whole of ytd. PS, centrepoint and heeren. yup. we saw so many things we liked. lol. but we hardly bought any. now, iv'e got a long long want list. =p. everyone was just craving for starbucks then, so we each bought a cuppa. =) i just luuurve the whip cream. *licks lips*. we took neos too. a little bit over excited. hahahs. I LIKE THEM. well, iv'e just got so many things on my mind now. 37d sling bag, board shorts, and haulter top. um, i think the spag top is kinda nice too. =p aughhh. so many. hahaha, can't bring myself to spend so much. saw nice slips at tangs. but damn ex. sigh. walked until my feet really hurt. i could hardly move. haha. went back at 10+. mum was midnight shopping. so stayed over at mei's hse. lol. =) practiced piano. and i can play yu jian now. yay! =D couldn't sleep because of the coffaeee. lol.
Today's sermon was great. Rusty Russell. =) very interesting. lol. went mei's hse to study chem. trying to memorise TYS. hopefully mrs chew is too lazy to set the questions. if that isn't the case. we're dead. lol. =X Dekap sucks man. yea. anyway, ate so much today. hai, but i lost half a kg??!! weird. but thats good. lol. =)))
*u're unreasonable. i have always put u first. u've left now, i can't even have my own fun. seize this friendship because i am spending time with others. i have every right now that u're gone. i dun geddit one bit. sigh. im speechless.
1:11 AM In the years to come, will you think about these moments that we shared. In the years to come, are you gonna think over, and how we lived each day with no regrets, nothing lasts forever though we want it to, the road ahead holds different dreams for me and you.
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart it's the only way for destiny,
sometimes goodbye though it hurts it's the only way left for you and me,
though it's the hardest thing to say, I miss your love in every way,
so say goodbye but don't you cry cause true love never dies.
In a year from now maybe there'll be things we wished we'd never said. In a year from now maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner no regrets, each and every end is always writen in the stars, if only I could stop the world. i'd make this last
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart it's the only way for destiny,
sometimes goodbye though it hurts it's the only way left for you and me,
though it's the hardest thing to say, I miss your love in every way,
so say goodbye but don't you cry cause true love never dies.
And when you need my arms to run into, i'll come for you,
nothing will ever change the way I feel.
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart it's the only way for destiny,
sometimes goodbye though it it's the only way left for you and me,
though it's the hardest thing to say, I miss your love in every way,
so say goodbye but don't you cry cause true love never dies.....
sigh. such a sad song. but true love never dies. never.
Bev
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Friday, October 17, 2003
11:37 PM You're Most Like The Season Spring ...
Fresh faced, with a young outlook on life - you smile at the world and expect it to smile back at you. You're mostly a bubbly, fun - innocent person. Described as cute possibly. However, you're a little naive about things and tend to be a little too trustworthy.
As the first season, It Makes you the youngest - and so most immature - but people are inclined to look out for and protect you.
Well done... You're the most fun of the seasons :)
Last night
i looked into the black sky
and saw one star bright.
Just one.
I thought back
When i last wished upon a star.
I wanted forever
but my dream was barred.
Your love left first.
Was this to be.
The heavens moonless.
I couldn't see.
I recalled my promise.
under the star strewned
that twilight i made.
with the furtive moon.
I was true-blue
but reality hits me now.
Iv'e long lost you.
6:37 AM HI!! exams are like almost over. -jumps for joy- there's only chem paper 1 on monday left. but im kinda dead for this final yr. its like. =X i think im gonna fail 5 subjects. sighhhh. all the sciences and maths. =( how? i dunno? frig. anyway, i'll buck up next yr. lol. -lazy me- lol. its O LEVELS next year. golly. time flies so fast. now, im making myself worried. again. oh wells..nvm.
had to wait dunno how many million hours for the 45 minutes. i repeat only45 minutes for geog paper to start. -_-'' but had a good tiring long long chat with eSTAR, mich, and fedoraaa, so time flew by. talked too much crap and didn't study much. as expected. hahaha. it poured when the paper started. geog was tricky. i got 4 wrong already. =/ not pleased one bit.
headed to PS with mich. a tree collapsed and blocked the road at our school. lol. all the buses were stuck behind. lols. i guess the trees love falling at PL. one fell one ms Goh's car last year. her poor car got crushed. obviously. poor thing. but at least she got to keep her figure. lol. =p oop. shall not start again. haha.
watched internal affairs with mich, jas, jeri, jess, and wenhui. shawn and edison are so shuai cans. *drools* lol. i think tht was the only good thing abt the show. that they looked good. everybody was being killed lor. like wth?? haha. anyway, it was in chinese so i was sorta confused. didn't really know what the story was abt. lol. haha, but they really smile until damn cute. there was sound effect in the whole cinema everytime after they smiled. well, it probably melted their hearts. lols. its special, the smiles. makes you smile too even after all the shocking deaths. lols. hmm, they don't exactly capture my heart anywayss. lolx.
headed to heeren to walk arnd. Jas wants the same skirt as me. haha. we both hesistating cux of the M factor. $49.90 - DCP (mao mao). been wanting it for so long. must save to get it. i really must. =) then poor jessie got stomachache. so she slept for abt 1/2hr. on the bench. curled up. lol. so we talked and talked. hahaha. but she got better soon. =) went paragon then home.
lol. i was just in time for Holland V. yanyan is such a . just hate her. haha. watched star search too. and now im on the com. and my mum's nagging like nobody's business cus she just came home. lol. but i like those nags. somehow. yeah... kris's blog got something wrong. or isit mei's com?? haha. going out tml again. oooh, i just feel like shopping. yeps, my eyes are closing already. gtg off to lalaland soon. lols. =) nite. toodles ~
*i dunno. i dunno. i dunno. how wld i know? i can't just say yes even if i want to. i don't want the past to repeat. it will cus i know you haven't completely sorted out your feelings. look, i don't mean to get you mad, but you know, you know much more pretty girls. im not too pretty. beauty is shallow anyway. but if it can make you fall so badly so i guess it must be really quite impt to you. you don't sound like you really can't live w/o me. im pretty sure you'll still be happy with another girl. yeah. for all i know, we don't suit each other too well. like you said. those words just pierced my heart. in too deep. im starting to believe them. sigh. maybe so. sigh.
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
12:36 AM You know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again
And you come to me
On a summers breeze
Keep me warm in your love
Then you softly leave
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
'cause we're living in a world of fools
Breakin' us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me
(i believe in you)
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when i fall
And you may not think i care for you
When you know down inside that i really do
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
'cause we're living in a world of fools
Breakin' us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me
You know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again
And you come to me
On a summers breeze
Keep me warm in your love
Then you softly leave
And it's me you need to show
12:34 AM Everything is messed up.
i don't know what im thinking anymore.
someone just shoot me.
i couldn't do anything.
you're gone. you've flown away.
and your heart wasn't with me.
I wanted to send you off.
to see you for the last time.
i don't understand why you stopped me.
Air France 256.
i wanted to say goodbye badly.
i could have gone.
but i couldn't.
you meant what you said.
the fact is, im upset.
this feeling is killing me.
i don't know what will happen in the future.
what if everything that happened was wrong.
what if we were meant for each other.
you didn't let me go.
you didn't let anyone.
can't you see your friends care.
can't you see you're dearly loved.
i bleed for you.
the tears won't stop flowing.
no one will replace you that easily.
please never think tht way.
it hurts so much.
i can't concentrate on chem and chinese.
all i think of is you.
im lost without you.
and now you're gone.
Monday, October 13, 2003
7:06 AM Ohhhohhhh Yeah
Ooooh
Oohohh
Remember we'd be up all night
Talking 'til the morning light, yeah
Like the way it used to be
Those simple days
Just you and me, mmmm
I think baby I know
What's on your mind
Cuz you look like you've
Got something to say
I may not say those words anymore
But maybe it just ain't my way
You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you
Remember we used to laugh and say
No one else could get in our way
And there were times
When you would cry
And came knocking
On my door
And I was there
To shelter your pain
I think baby you should
Get that off your mind
Make it seem like
A brighter day
I may not say those words anymore
But maybe I can make it my way
You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you
The answer girl
Lies within your heart
Take a look inside
You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you
In you, in you
The answer lies in you
In you, in you
The answer lies in you
In you, in you
The answer lies in you, yeah
take good care of yourself.
i love you. and im not pretending.
i never was.
God bless. goodbye.
Staring at the foams of the ocean
THe wind whips her hair around her face
A whirlpool spirals in her
She is in a daze
Searching wildly for an answer
She finds the skies clear
Standing on the cliff, she longs to fly
Held, bonded by memories she holds dear
The empires she once ruled
Vanished in thin wisps of smoke
The fortress and army
Rebelled once dawn broke
The silk and gold she adorns herself
Are but ash and dirt, an illusion
The dreams she slogged for
Never came near completion
Her eyes clouded by tears
The sun's rays are denied entry
The wind's words are muffled
If only she could see
The leaves fall, flowers droop
The canary halts his song
Raindrops start to fall
They cannot bear to see her forlorn
another work of art by pear. muackx. study hard gerl.
8:09 AM okay. iv'e learnt my lesson.
im stronger. much much more.
i really must do what i want to do so i can be the person i want to be.
iv'e had enuff of these experiences. i don't want anymore till ltr.
everyone's here for me. i didn't expect it.
even those whom im not close to. they're here.
i just need all of you darlings to survive now.
times have been hard. but u all have stuck by me.
im sorry to those i have neglected during that time in my life.
im really really really sorry. i have always been.
and if i have been rude to u. it was bcux i was overprotective
you know who you are. and im sorry for how iv'e treated you.
thanks for being there. luv ya all lots.
*now, you and me are just friends. tk my advice. the whole world isn't agnt you. im always there if u need someone to talk to. so are yr meis and frens. you are not alone.
Sunday, October 05, 2003
1:51 AM //my world is falling apart.
you were too good to be true.
and now you're leaving.
leaving everything behind.
we were so close.
too close.
why must you go?
can't things be the way they were before?
has the love really gone.
everything's flooding my mind.
i miss you so much.
how can you just forget all we've been thru
rain and shine.
we were always there for each other in the hardest of times.
its not right without you.
we've been thru mid year together.
why cant we cross the final yr as well
i don't want you to go away.
i love you too too much.
i know i can't ask for too much.
what you said:
"Goodbye doesn't mean forever, we can still be friends"
now why can't we be?
i dun understand.
you said there was hope.
i was overjoyed.
what did i do to make you change yr mind.
and get so mad.
i really don't no.
i guess goodbye forever is the words you want to say.
its hurting so deep
i just wanna die.
9:10 PM YOOHOO! long time nv update liao. well, exams have started. eng and chi paper1 sucked. bahs. im fated to write out of point for chinese. or at least not very to the point. its like every exam. =/ got back chem prac and amaths test ytd. not too bad. passed both. -smiles- was with gloria n loraine looking at ACS I sku mag. lols. x) saw a cute guy.=p gloria thinks so too. we really have the same taste. anyway. esther likes jack. ooh. but i think he's err okay lah. haha. talked with geck, yiling and eileen. lols. watermelon. lols. but so romantic lorrs. =) karen's hair got corolisis effect. haha. i also dunno how to spell. cute. anyways, mich, keep long hair. you look good cans. really. =D hahhss. im so bored of studying.
