Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too
Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you; I love you too"
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly
Sunday, February 29, 2004
7:16 PM I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
Monday, February 16, 2004
2:32 AM had a realli happy birthday and valentine's dae. =)
too tired of blogging nowadays.
so, i shall be away for some time.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?
and its not easy to stay happy.
Its a cynical world.
Monday, February 09, 2004
6:59 AM i was made for him.
he was not made for me.
=) beautiful dae.
its just tht it was realli tiring.
well. im packed with things...
abt 2 weeks, im full up.
bahaha, tml im turning 16.
=DDDDD -excited-
lols.. =)
Friday, February 06, 2004
4:01 PM im horrible.
last night, i did something terrible.
i shld not have been such a b****.
that song totally stirred me up.
were u starting to accuse me agn?
well, i thot so. i thot wrongly.
im sorry.
im a fool.
my attitude is becoming shit.
im not myself. =(
ive start to wonder if im living in self denial.
maybe.. sigh. im not sure myself.
and everytime i try to start each week well
(starts with sunday)
i end up in a fat mess.
just like this. perfect example.
-slaps myself- haix ~
im not supposed to fall....
to the temptations and misleads.
to the whole dying to self thingy.
ive FAILED. failed with a capital F.
but im gonna pass...(;
and give my best. =D
last night, something in me just kept praying and praying.
and i know that i can do what i wanna do. i just have to realli desire to do whatever it is. yeah, have a strong will. i did it once, and i can do it agn. (: and i will focus on God. too bad the other choice has to be sch. lol. BUT, im NOT gonna let my addiction affect me, not going to feel that way anymore. bev, u can do it. i can live w/o my addiction. =) its not impt anyway.
past is past. why the hell am i being touchy on it. =S okay, am a bit psychotic. hahaha. alright, i shan't shan't shan't. hurrays! (siao) yeah, i don't have to bear the hurt anymore. i know its over.
i just wanna grow more in Christ. thats my real addiction. Don't know how i cld have put it aside. ive strayed so far this week. so anyways, ive slashed/deleted some stuff. and im sorry. sorry to myself, sorry to u. sorry to everyone. i pray to have a good week ahead. sighs...=)
Ive changed my mind. I just wanna spend Valentine's day with God alone.*
4:41 AM lol. gd dae gd dae! =D
TGIF. i absolutely adore fridays. =)
NO chinese, no chem.
purrrfect ~ lols.
and i always laugh most on fridays.
dunno why, but i can't stop. haha.
oh yesss, william hung is such a sweetie (?)
okay, bad word to use. but anyways..
she bangs she bangs!
no. one hit in singapore. =p
he has super attitude =)
bahaha. -appaulse-
o, God ma called.
she wants to have a talk with me. =X
i think she thinks i am psychotic?
she sounded so serious...
i think she thinks i have a problem.
hm, she may be right.
but i shall just shut up...
during my interrogation. -shrugs-
and when i think of u, my eyes roll. and when i think of you, i smile. and when i think of U*, im on cloud nine.
im thinking too much. owellss.
i shall think abt a maths. ewwww.
goodbye =p
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1:27 AM feel as thou im giving up.
how i wish it wld rain.
no one really bothers.
she pisses me off.
i hate sch.
i must be mad thinking of reconciliation.
just rmbed he's mad at me now (and im not giving in agn)
how the hell can they find a way back to each other if i don't start. oh yeah, ive started and restarted agn and agn. he gets angry. (tht petty *******) then the next week he comes and talk to me like nothing has happened.
well, this cycle just sucks and if it continues, reconciliation is out of the question. does my sis help? NO. she makes it worse. >=(
and the more i think abt her. the more i dislike her. oh whatever. too bad i was close to her once. i din realise she only bothered abt herself and how she feels. i might even say she's a little gay (oops i said it) but o well she doesnt notice it. ha...(:
Lai ma's taking me out for jap lunch on Sat. Have to miss the gathering at Mr Tang's place. and then i have backup.
alrightss. have to go...
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
11:07 PM And somehow my emotions are getting mixed up....
im regreting things i have nv regreted b4 in my entire lifetime. It was wrong, but i regret not taking the chance even when i knew it was impossible. It wld have ended badly, but i still regret.
And i don't know y...
And when i look into our world and how it used to be, i'd smile and smile and smile to myself until i look like a total freak. (Yiling caught me red handed) lol. =D But it doesn't matter cuz i smile now and feel no pain. i can't remember the sad times at all, (hm, except one) but the sweet memories overflow and fill me and i smile. =)))) because of you.
And you're far away from me, but you seem so near~
*
Reconciliation with many requirements.
It means changing his whole nature.
doubted success. =/
still darenot pray.
but maybe wishes come true.
3:51 AM Its strange, but for the first time since we've moved, im hoping for reconciliation. Don't know whether its good or bad. I dare not pray for it.
Sunday, February 01, 2004
5:27 AM shall just paste this here agn. and i got some stuff. hurrays! =D
my want list:
1. Ripcurl bag (red) - $59.90 i paid $50 =D
2. Colourful earrings - $4.90
3. Pencil case (?)
4. Water bottle - $11.90 5. Hangbag (?)
6. Bikini top (i found the ideal one, but its so ex!) -whines-
7. Small yellow monkey - $14 ( its goneeeeee -moans-)
8. Formal white shoes (butterfly) - $40 9. Jacket (?)
10. 6610!
11. esprit tee - $29
12. espirt watch - $168
13. dark blue denim skirt - ???
