Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too
Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you; I love you too"
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly
Friday, February 06, 2004
4:01 PM im horrible.
last night, i did something terrible.
i shld not have been such a b****.
that song totally stirred me up.
were u starting to accuse me agn?
well, i thot so. i thot wrongly.
im sorry.
im a fool.
my attitude is becoming shit.
im not myself. =(
ive start to wonder if im living in self denial.
maybe.. sigh. im not sure myself.
and everytime i try to start each week well
(starts with sunday)
i end up in a fat mess.
just like this. perfect example.
-slaps myself- haix ~
im not supposed to fall....
to the temptations and misleads.
to the whole dying to self thingy.
ive FAILED. failed with a capital F.
but im gonna pass...(;
and give my best. =D
last night, something in me just kept praying and praying.
and i know that i can do what i wanna do. i just have to realli desire to do whatever it is. yeah, have a strong will. i did it once, and i can do it agn. (: and i will focus on God. too bad the other choice has to be sch. lol. BUT, im NOT gonna let my addiction affect me, not going to feel that way anymore. bev, u can do it. i can live w/o my addiction. =) its not impt anyway.
past is past. why the hell am i being touchy on it. =S okay, am a bit psychotic. hahaha. alright, i shan't shan't shan't. hurrays! (siao) yeah, i don't have to bear the hurt anymore. i know its over.
i just wanna grow more in Christ. thats my real addiction. Don't know how i cld have put it aside. ive strayed so far this week. so anyways, ive slashed/deleted some stuff. and im sorry. sorry to myself, sorry to u. sorry to everyone. i pray to have a good week ahead. sighs...=)
Ive changed my mind. I just wanna spend Valentine's day with God alone.*
