Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too
Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you; I love you too"
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
8:41 AM haven't been updating for the past few weeks i think.
partly because there's a stupidd ad stuck in the middle of the page and i cbb to try and remove it and partly cuz im lazy. =)
prelims are around the corner and im so fweeking lazy pls. i think i studied harder in sec 1. oh wells!~ the com is kinda lagging now. it only appears on the screen after i type a few words. sho irritating. =/
the last 14 or so days have been either filled with inexpressable joy and sad to say, sorrow as well. lets start with the bliss of my life's happenings first :))
okayyy, so many weeks have past and now i can't really rmb.
i know i had this realli wonderful buffet high tea w my dad and sista at the equinox. it was breathtakingly beautiful up there. since we dined at the 70th floor, we could see the whole stretch of s'pore. it seemed like the silly game, sim city. so, anyway, appart fr the bird's eye view, the food was amazing pls. ate till i became pregnant. grabbed this opportunity and im glad i did. lol! x) sighs.
every sat, there's been someone coming to my hse. we'd plan to study bt then at the end of the day, nth much has been done. bt they were great company. thnks guys! :))
aunty carol n uncle teck pew came over for dinner one sat, gloria joined us cuz she was there. :p
their mee siam was healthy. hahah, made out of brown rice. bt she's like some giant eater, so you can guess she isnt tht slim. adding to her weight, she hates 4 letter words. like DIET and double 4 letter words. like EXERCISE. lol! bt she likes FOOD right? hah. talked for so dem long after tht. bt it was interesting. ;)
okay, all tht sounded so happy. bt im sad. and im realli so tired.
been reading "streams in the desert" and it has def given me strength.
i faltered bt im glad i stood up agn. :)
life's a land of hills and valleys.
it is the difficulty encounted on the hills tht drives us to the throne of grace and brings the showers of blessings. the hills, the cold and seemingly barren hills, bring the showers.
i read this and my spirit was lifted up. yup!
but....
i almost died. nth was right. everything was wrong.
too many hills. i could have died.
did He think i could handle so much?
did He think i could carry so much?
He expected so much from me.
but i couldn't do it properly.
He provided, bt soon He took away.
He took away twice.
He gave me people, bt he took them away.
thts all the past and i knw im over it
bt i nv realise how exhausted i am.
like i said b4, i wish i had a recorder in my mind/heart/brain, so i wld be able to tape dwn everything i felt at the moment. cuz no words now can describe and tell of the things tht ran thru my head.
superficial shitts. i feel tht way sometimes.
its not easy to ignore, same w other stuff.
i bet it'll make no diff even if i disappear into thin air.
i'll just be some stupid gossip topic in class.
they nv really love you.
anyway, i know ive been extremely irritable these days.
bt i tell you im dem unlucky or better known as ill fated.
hear of these pri sch compos? "what an unlucky day"
well, they happen in reality too, and they are realli much worse.
screwed eng prelims when i cld have gotten an A.
next thing - missed my extra tuition lesson cuz i don't knw how to do 70% of the pp.
waited 1/2 an hr for 55.. crap.
cldnt find my pe shorts the next morn.
it wld be better if they were spread out.
.................... so on and so forth.
yeah, became a cynic, almost lost myself.
im sorry if ive glared at whoever for no reason.
bt i doubt so lars ;)
like alex said : " i slept in the afternoon so im nocturnal now."
yeah, its 1.30 now and there's no sch tml cuz its tchers day. yaysss!:D
` i wld like to keep our friendship as it is ? please. cuz i care.
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
5:13 AM my schedule's been packed with all everything and anything for the past week. ;)
stayed back to create dance moves for the teacher's day performance. (realli retarded)
lol. :) i hope it won't be too embarrassing. hee. well, gotta stay back again tml again. dots~
just watched ronald susilo play against the thai. lost. :( its realli sad. bt the thai guy was pretty gd. bt, its still v sad when someone loses. hai. just yest he beat the german player.
its come clear to me tht i dislike sitting w you.
i don't know how else to put it
don't ask me why, i'll shaddup.
it makes me sad to say this.
its starting to get to me. uncared for. i can't think clearly at the moment. im feeling extremely drained. weird, cuz i slept 2 hrs in the afternoon.
im flying alone*
shann` hullo ger?! :p wher on earth are you? are we still studying tgt anot? lols. you're so last min pls! get back to me hor. *grin*
Friday, August 13, 2004
7:17 PM wheee :))
got back my chi results
and i passed w a B.
praise the Lord.
HURRRAYYYYY!!!
im so relieved.
k, a B4 may nt be v gd, bt for me its like woahh cux normally im like D7. =x
mei gt a B4 too. hee..
all thanks to wu lao shi and chen lao shi. :)
ooh, im so happy pls. *grins*
when they announced the release of the results, my whole class and i guess all the sec4s and 5s started screaming. ANXIOUS. we waited in the hall for a million years for mrs lee to arrive. she finally gt her big bird butt up to the hall, with the word BAD pasted on her face. tsk. nt once did she smile or at least remove tht disgusting frown from her face. she was so unnerving and guess what was the first statement she said to us. "This is the worse set of results we've had in pl in the last six years" pfuit! what a terrible way to start off. >:C ok, the results weren't tht gd bt she spoke (more like scolded us) as if everyone didn't care abt the exam which i doubt is the least bit true. and we gt a long i hr lecture -_- with main reference to my class, as usual. uhh, wad did she call my class during the lecture after midyear? the disastrous class! she can be so sweet hur *stares at her* what she said made me think tht half the class failed. bt in the end, there were no failures! =D and only 4 girls gt below b3. SO? sigh, my ears ached.
yest, i had eng oral Os.
sprouted nonsense and untruths
im happy things flowed and seemed quite natural.
bt, i think it was quite disorganised.
its come and gone.
i hope i get an A :)
later,met my kor kor - shawnie.
we ate at BK instead of fish n co which was the original plan.
quite little buckeroos left you see. :P
lols, had a great time chatting
short and sweet dinner.. :D
Monday, August 09, 2004
8:46 PM was realli last minute yest. haha!
rushed all the way to tm to watch the notebook with sung ann.
luckily we weren't late. lols..
we gt quite gd seats too even thou we bought the tix just 10 min before the movie started.
heee, it was quite funny. hahah. =) and sweet. liked it.
and i knew they wld die in the end.
90% of his novels have the main characters dying. haha
rushed to shu en's bday party after tht.
watched s'pore idol with the cousins
the judges are mean peas man.
but they've got wit i mustsay.
lols. laughed till our heads rolled. =D
watched paddy and li play xbox
and save the princess..
who died eventually after 3 secs
when a box fell on her and killed her.
bahah. =)) *laughs*
wenta ah ma's room to watch friends.
ltr, played pictionary and charades.
and tried to think of moves for its a beautiful day heh.
hahah =D
Sunday, August 08, 2004
11:29 PM Q & A on diets/exercise
Q: I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life. Is this true?
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it...don't waste them on exercise. Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.
Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.
Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body, and you have body fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.
Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain... Good.
Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: You're not listening. Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?
Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.
Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy? HELLO ...... Cocoa beans ... another vegetable!!! It's the best feel good food around.
Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.
Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!
Friday, August 06, 2004
10:02 PM had ndp celebration ytd and colours award presentation.
loads of refreshments and they wanted us to take as much as we can.
10 donuts! ha. i ate like 4. pig pls.
anyway, went to jac(k)'s place to get on with the teacher's day item.
jac's dog is so tiny and cute and kinda skinny. =)
her room is v neat and pretty too.
so when i got back, i had inspiration to tidy my room.
and i don't knw why i took so long to do it. =S
it looks quite the same actually. bahh~
ive been slacking the whole morning...
augh augh! i wish i had inspiration to study lars.
this is terrible. im like stoninggg.
got worship practice later too..
and im just wondering what to wear.
ive been wondering for the whole week.
red skirt and what???
i have no idea what is tht what.
im so so so so so bored now pls.
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
4:14 AM yay! ive got a new template.
thanks yuqi! =D
and phil too. hurhur.
happy now...
but ive not done any work since the afternoon!
lazy me. =X
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
1:30 AM back from sch and my brain feels totally burnt.
amaths is a killer pls. i can't even get dwn to start on it :(
im realli tired.
anyways, the last entry is rather rude.
its quoted and i think the person wldn't like his/her name to be mentioned.
so, i guess i kinda flared up, suddenly, strangely, after such a long time.
ah, just ignore it, ignorance is bliss right?
can't be bothered to make you feel bad too.
you wld if you knew what i know, i can bet on it.
but there's no point in causing wounds to open agn right?
so this can just be buried. yeas
okay, enough of cynical and angry entries
nothing's gonna get no where by brooding :)
ha, nexts up.. :P
MATTHIAS :))) oh mann i love this boy! dem dem dem cute terribly hyper. lovely name too! saw him at Ps's flat when we had prayer meeting on sunday night.
he's Ps Selvam and Evelyn's son :)
been thru so much too, poor him.
but when they shared, they told us once when both of them were dreadfully sick, matthias said," don't worry mummy, the angels are coming :))"
"how many?" asked evelyn.
"2" matthias replied.
"what colour are they?".
"blue and white".
ha, he's a good boy.
two accidents happened tht night.
we were playing with him. (fighting w sam)
he kicked dwn a glass cup and it broke.
luckily it didn't hurt anyone.
then ltr he knocked his head on the floor when he jumped on a cushion.
ouch! but he was ok after a bit of tears.
hahh, im nt scared of having babies anymore. *grinz*
Sunday, August 01, 2004
12:14 AM its so easy to tell ppl to move on. move on!
and then when you need to move on yrself, you can't
you shout, type profanity and tell her to move on, move on.
she's a typical bitch in yr life, she oughta just move on, things have changed.
ahh, nv expected to see such scum.
its realli painful to see such "understanding".
i was really sad when i first saw.
i became..really angry.
i was really really angry.
now, when i see it again, im double the really really angry.
if she's the clingy motherfucker. hell, what difference are you?
