Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too
Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you; I love you too"
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
8:41 AM haven't been updating for the past few weeks i think.
partly because there's a stupidd ad stuck in the middle of the page and i cbb to try and remove it and partly cuz im lazy. =)
prelims are around the corner and im so fweeking lazy pls. i think i studied harder in sec 1. oh wells!~ the com is kinda lagging now. it only appears on the screen after i type a few words. sho irritating. =/
the last 14 or so days have been either filled with inexpressable joy and sad to say, sorrow as well. lets start with the bliss of my life's happenings first :))
okayyy, so many weeks have past and now i can't really rmb.
i know i had this realli wonderful buffet high tea w my dad and sista at the equinox. it was breathtakingly beautiful up there. since we dined at the 70th floor, we could see the whole stretch of s'pore. it seemed like the silly game, sim city. so, anyway, appart fr the bird's eye view, the food was amazing pls. ate till i became pregnant. grabbed this opportunity and im glad i did. lol! x) sighs.
every sat, there's been someone coming to my hse. we'd plan to study bt then at the end of the day, nth much has been done. bt they were great company. thnks guys! :))
aunty carol n uncle teck pew came over for dinner one sat, gloria joined us cuz she was there. :p
their mee siam was healthy. hahah, made out of brown rice. bt she's like some giant eater, so you can guess she isnt tht slim. adding to her weight, she hates 4 letter words. like DIET and double 4 letter words. like EXERCISE. lol! bt she likes FOOD right? hah. talked for so dem long after tht. bt it was interesting. ;)
okay, all tht sounded so happy. bt im sad. and im realli so tired.
been reading "streams in the desert" and it has def given me strength.
i faltered bt im glad i stood up agn. :)
life's a land of hills and valleys.
it is the difficulty encounted on the hills tht drives us to the throne of grace and brings the showers of blessings. the hills, the cold and seemingly barren hills, bring the showers.
i read this and my spirit was lifted up. yup!
but....
i almost died. nth was right. everything was wrong.
too many hills. i could have died.
did He think i could handle so much?
did He think i could carry so much?
He expected so much from me.
but i couldn't do it properly.
He provided, bt soon He took away.
He took away twice.
He gave me people, bt he took them away.
thts all the past and i knw im over it
bt i nv realise how exhausted i am.
like i said b4, i wish i had a recorder in my mind/heart/brain, so i wld be able to tape dwn everything i felt at the moment. cuz no words now can describe and tell of the things tht ran thru my head.
superficial shitts. i feel tht way sometimes.
its not easy to ignore, same w other stuff.
i bet it'll make no diff even if i disappear into thin air.
i'll just be some stupid gossip topic in class.
they nv really love you.
anyway, i know ive been extremely irritable these days.
bt i tell you im dem unlucky or better known as ill fated.
hear of these pri sch compos? "what an unlucky day"
well, they happen in reality too, and they are realli much worse.
screwed eng prelims when i cld have gotten an A.
next thing - missed my extra tuition lesson cuz i don't knw how to do 70% of the pp.
waited 1/2 an hr for 55.. crap.
cldnt find my pe shorts the next morn.
it wld be better if they were spread out.
.................... so on and so forth.
yeah, became a cynic, almost lost myself.
im sorry if ive glared at whoever for no reason.
bt i doubt so lars ;)
like alex said : " i slept in the afternoon so im nocturnal now."
yeah, its 1.30 now and there's no sch tml cuz its tchers day. yaysss!:D
` i wld like to keep our friendship as it is ? please. cuz i care.
